Hey Gids, I'm sorry that I did not post before now, but I did get the chance to read it and I have been praying for you and your exams. And I know that this has not worked well before in the past, but is there any way that I can financially help you out with your CD or anything? I don't even know if you will get this in enough time for me to be any good, but if there is any way, please let me know. And somehow I have GOT to get a copy of one of those CDs. I would love more than anything to be able to listen to it and all your musical genius- that I am ALWAYS impressed with).
I think there is a part of my heart that is terribly rebelious. And sometimes, honestly, I think I literally just want to stir up trouble but I mascarade it all in the name of Jesus.
I used to be almost decent at playing the piano, but after not playing for nine months at school I am really rusty. So... I decided to take piano lessons again to try to help re-improve myself. Well, now every time I sit down at the beautiful keys, I remember what I once was and I see and feel how far I need to go to get back there- and farther. I suppose it's easy for me to just get frusterated with myself for not being good or...better... or perfect.
Well, Gideon, such is my walk with Jesus.
But a couple a days ago I spent twenty minutes sitting in the parking lot at the church next to my house watching the most maginificent lightning storm that I have seen in a long time. Sitting on the blacktop in the middle of the parking lot is kind of like being in the middle of the ocean. There was no one for a very long distance and I was very much alone. I have to admit that it was one of the most refreshing times of my summer thus far. It was so.. refreshing and... humbling..... and peaceful... and dangerous... and good. Truly good. It was good re-affirmation that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion. And that I have to believe He HAS begun a good work in me, for as much as I have doubted it this summer, because if I don't believe it- I'm totally screwed and worthless. The rain was a beautiful finale.

" For I am confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ." Phil. 1:6

I don't know how much of this is making sense, but this is my summer.
Anyway, my family is good. My sister is back and she loved it there and learned alot. It has made me want to go back so, so badly. The rest of my family is doing well though.
The doctrinal study that we're doing is going well, it's really streaching my mind and pushing me, but I'm learning alot. How is your family? I hardly ever ask about them, I'm sorry. How's Joy? Do you get to talk to her much?
And you said it so well, that whenever I write, I can't help but miss you either.
You are a truly good friend. I hope you are able to post soon. Let me know what all I can do.
Bethany