Oh Gids, please don't feel bad that you do not write long. It's quality not quantity that counts, really. Besides, often I feel like I just need to write whatever I'm feeling down and I feel better. Don't get me wrong, I always appreciate and value the words of wisdom you give me, but, before I ever get a response, I feel better being able to send my heart via this thing far away to a friend that I know I can count on. Does that make sense? I hope it does. I'm not really sure that I would even be able to explain it better.
And right now, my heart is heavy. I feel like if I even began to tell you what all was going on in my head right now I would open a can of worms.
Sigh....
Please pray that God would give me wisdom in the choices that I make. So often I find myself wishing that God would still come down and walk with me and just tell me what to do. And I have to remind myself that He has given us everything we need for life in His Word.
I have to admit that I have a hard time with that.
Okay. I feel like I have no where else to go right now. All of my other friends have sided so I am just going to vent to you everything that is on my heart. Please don't feel like you even have to respond to this. I just need to tell someone.
My parents aren't convinced that Andrew (the boy that I've been dating for a while) is the one for me. They don't really have any problems with him- he is a great guy who is madly in love with me. They think, however, that there is someone better out there for me. They think that I should look around some. And so now, my decision is to either break Andrew's heart for some one that possible doesn't even exsist OR possible just settle for some guy that I have become rather attached to. So...
That's what I get to deal with. And I feel torn, Gideon. I feel push to make a desicion but panicked at the same time because I just don't know.
I just don't know.
I'm sorry this wasn't very encouraging. But, I pray that your mid terms went well and that you and Joy are loving God together. I hope you get to see her soon.
Thank you for listening.
Bethany