Hey
You know I'm less worried when you actually speak out what stuff is bothering you than when I suspect that something is wrong with you and I can't figure out exactly what, because you know that speaking out is the first step to healing-no wonder as you wrote to me you felt better. Bethany don't be quick to 'christianize' pain. Feel it, cry, be mad(but do not sin) and make sure the intensity of the pain does not escape you, for then when God through the comforting ministry of the Holy Spirit ministers to you, then you really are refreshed and healed. I don't exactly know what happened and I'm not presing that you tell me, but whatever it is, I'm holding you dearly in prayer. A good relationship with your family is the most important ministry one can ever do, despite how much effort and pain this takes.
He will keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Him...(Isaiah 26:3)
Giddy

Hey Gids, I will pray for you to trust in the Lord. I know it's not always easy. But remember that we never know what is best for ourselves. You know what? I've been thinking a lot lately. It seems like so many people any more just care about themselves. The world is so full of selfish people that don't care who they hurt. Today, more than any other day thus far, I contemplated running away from home back to Kenya. It seems like life was so much more clear cut when I was there. I have enough money in savings to buy a one way ticket. My sister held me back though. If it wasn't for her and her situation. I dont' know what I'd do. Maybe it's just a dream that I feel like I'm ready to make reality. I don't know. Maybe I'd never have the guts to actaully do it. I don't know. I feel like now that I'm talking to you, I'm coming to my senses more. I just feel sick. I do everything that I can, and people are just.... people, I guess. Wow, this is depressing. Anyway, I guess people letting me down is a good way for God to draw me near to His heart. He has been my only sustinance today.
I feel like I should thank you again, but I know that I say it all the time and that it probably doesn't mean much anymore, but Gideon, I am greatful to God that you are in my life. I really am.
Beti

Hey Gids, I will pray for you to trust in the Lord. I know it's not always easy. But remember that we never know what is best for ourselves. You know what? I've been thinking a lot lately. It seems like so many people any more just care about themselves. The world is so full of selfish people that don't care who they hurt. Today, more than any other day thus far, I contemplated running away from home back to Kenya. It seems like life was so much more clear cut when I was there. I have enough money in savings to buy a one way ticket. My sister held me back though. If it wasn't for her and her situation. I dont' know what I'd do. Maybe it's just a dream that I feel like I'm ready to make reality. I don't know. Maybe I'd never have the guts to actaully do it. I don't know. I feel like now that I'm talking to you, I'm coming to my senses more. I just feel sick. I do everything that I can, and people are just.... people, I guess. Wow, this is depressing. Anyway, I guess people letting me down is a good way for God to draw me near to His heart. He has been my only sustinance today.
I feel like I should thank you again, but I know that I say it all the time and that it probably doesn't mean much anymore, but Gideon, I am greatful to God that you are in my life. I really am.
Beti