I am looking forward to moving on in my life, I don't have only regrets. That's not how I meant to make it sound. But yeah, I don't know what I'm going to do for college either. I really want to go where my sister is but they don't have nursing there anymore so I've thought about going full-out doctor but I don't know if I want to be in school for that long. I'm also thinking about counseling and music but I'd probably just minor in those. I will be finishing high school at this time next year. Jen and jeremy are technically married but they are not living together and they haven't had the church ceremony yet either so that will be coming when he gets home. They are married according to the state officals but that's really all. Speaking of college and such...I don't want this to sound harsh or irrational or cruel in anyway so please don't be offended be this but I think that I need to know where you stand on this. What exactly are your expectations of me concerning our relationship and my relationship with other boys? Now, maybe I should have asked you this question a long time ago because sometimes I don't know how you translate things that I tell you according to your culture. Be as specific as you can, please.
Actually, I forgot the dance steps that you taught me. But I never practiced them because I was ashamed of myself. We danced to all kinds of music on Sun. I made such a fool out of myself. But it was fun and that is what counts, no?
Bethany

Hey beautiful!
A 'punch' of emotions and state of mind comes in everyone's life for one reason or another but especially when there has to be change in life and mainly the kind of change that is brought by growth.But we don't like this feeling and this is natural because we like status qouy.But I hope you over come that feeling soon and realise that it is so much fun to grow up and find joy in accomplishing all that is expected of you as a mature individual.I enjoy responsibility,growing up and all that and more over it thrills me to venture into the world of greater concerns responsibilities and even challenges!I thought that your sister and Jeremy were already married!What music did you dance to at the wedding?Do you still remember those moves I taught you?Now I have even better moves,I learnt one recently and I do it almost all the time and that is so because it involes lot of foot work and I LOVE it.I can't wait for you to clear high schol and have you talk about college plans and all that-welcome to the world,soon-And when do you clear your final year?Take care.I miss ya,but I still pray for you,thats the only other thing I can do whenever I think about you apart from looking at your snaps.I'll send you mine soon.
Giddy

I don't know what to say Gids, so much has been going on in my life lately, I don't even know where to start. My last day of school is next Wed. Then I will be entering my last year of high school. I'm sad. I kinda don't want to grow up. Fri was the seniors last day of school and it was so sad. It used to be that the seniors were way up there and way mature and sophisticated and out of my league. But it just hit me on Fri that there people were my friends and that they were ending this chapter in their lives and they were all crying and we were all crying. It was a rough day. It was weird. I feel like all of a sudden, I am old. Like, I'm expected to know what I'm going to do and be prepared for anything. I don't like to have to be responsible like that. Not that I'm not looking forward to what God has for me, because I am I am! In some ways I feel like I'm SOOO ready to get out and actually start living life and really making a difference in people's lives but I don't know. It's mixed emotions, you know?
I'm sorry about all your cancellations. I feel you on that one. Come the end of this school year, a lot of people have been bailing out on me all of a sudden. It's really made life a little frusterating. But I don't mean to just complain. Life has been intense but God has been so good and so faithful. My sister is getting more and more excited about her wedding. We just went to one of her friends wedding yesterday and it made her even more excited for Jeremy to get back so they can get married. Guess what I did at this wedding? I DANCED! You would have been so proud of me! Granted, I probably made a fool out of myself but it was SO fun. I don't remember the last time that I had such a good time with my sister. I love her so much.
I would really like to see some pictures of you.
Bethany