I heard from you and am hoping that you weren't online today waiting for me because I had a speech meet and was gone all day long. It was a really long day. But I did get third place out of 21 so that was cool. You want me to forgive you for last time? Do you honestly think that I was that upset about it? I understand that you are a busy man and I feel bad that you feel bad because I really do understand. Besides, how could I ever be mad at a guy like you? Please, let's try again, whenever you're able. And yes, I suppose that I'm crazy for performing surgery on myself but it was just a little baby cut and I figured that it couldn't get that bad. That little thing has been in my knee since I was in Africa and it was all healed over. I just wanted it out. And besides, it was fun for my friend to watch me cut myself. It was bonding time for us. I did use some disinfectant but that's all and it did get a little infected but I cleared it up with some ointment. It'll be good as new. Actaully, I was kind of hoping that there would be a little scar just to always remind me of my little stupid projects like that. It wasn't big, less than an inch. I can't descibe the sound. I'll have to cut myself for you one day just so you can hear it :-). That writing from you made me so happy. Thank you. I really miss you and can't wait to talk to you online.
Bethany

I'm soo sorry I couldn't be on line yesterday cause we had an irregular ministry just at 3.00 and I felt so bad not to be able to atleast write a word to let you know. I went on line a couple of times before yesterday but each time I found you had not read the mail so I even wasn't sure you were gonna be on line or not but thats not the reason I wasn't on line yesterday,I take all the blame to that and I'm really,really sorry.Forgiven?Maybe we should arrange for another one, how about this saturday at 6.30pm my time?We'll be having a bible qiuz but I hope we'll be done b4 six.You did a cut on your self?I find that fascinating but alittle bit alarming!How big was the slit?Did you have antiseptic,elastoplast and stuff like that?How big was the kitchen knife?Don't you think you it could have been better if you used a new razor blade instead? Wow! I think you are very brave.For how long had you had the thing on your knee?What kind of SOUND exactly did the cut produce,can you try describing it?I find that whole scenario fascinating though.I really miss you Beti and you don't know how much I wish I could see you and have you talking face to face with me and just spending time together.I'm happy for your sister too and I know what your goin' through its just a matter of time and your gonna get used to the idea of her marriage.Thanks for your prayers Bethany,really ,thanks,you never know what they do to my life everyday.I like you Bethany,so much,and I keep hoping we'll meet again and...............all that and more.Take care of your self girl,please do .
Affectionately,Giddy.

Well, since I haven't heard from you I will just assume that something important came up and you couldn't get online. I hope this find you doing very well. I'm praying for you!
Bethany

Guess what I did? I performed emergency surgery on my knee. There has been some little thing in my knee for a very long time and so my friend came over to my house today and we cut me open. I got a knife from the kitchen and I cut my knee open. It was so cool! There was blood every where. I’ve never purposefully cut myself before. One thing that I did not expect was the sound. I didn’t think that I would hear anything and I did! It sounded like…I don’t know what, but we did get it out! I think that it must have been a little pebble or something. I kept the knife all bloody for while and it made me feel so cool, like I really knew what I was doing. Then we cleaned me up and I went to church. I’ll send you a picture of it when I get the chance- I took lots because I was proud.
I would so much love to talk to you online on Wed. I will be there. I feel like we have a lot of catching up to do. Just the other day I was looking through m Africa pictures again and they made me miss Africa and you so bad all over again. You know what I want more than anything right now (Well… almost anything)? I want to have a dream about you so bad. I wish that I could have a dream about you like we can talk online. Wouldn’t that be nice?
My sister came home this weekend and her husband is now going somewhere for the army so she was alone and I had such a good time with her. We went to get some pictures of her wedding developed. I was really happy that her boyfriend wasn’t there, but I felt bad being happy that I could spend time with her. And I really AM happy for her. I don't just mean to be negative. I see her and I know that she is happy. Whenever I see them together, I know, I KNOW that she is happy and that makes me happy. It kills me to see her upset but on the other hand, I want to be the one to make her happy. I guess that seeing her like this makes me really want my own boyfriend who is here to make me happy like she is, or maybe just to spend extra time with when my whole family is "paired-together" and I'm just left in the dust all by myself. You are one of the only people that know how selfish my heart really is when it comes down to her. Does that make sense? I don’t think that It has really hit my yet that she is actually married because they are not living together until they have the church wedding. That wedding will be the real determining factor I think. I played the piano and sung harmony in church this morning for my friend Samantha. I was so scared because when we practiced, I messed up every time. Every single time! I messed up and it was a big mess up, not just little one that I could hide. It was one of those when you need to start the entire song over. BUT, it went well, and I didn’t mess up at all. What a relief like you would not believe. I trembling, I was so scared. Anyway, I am excited to talk to you on Wed. I can’t even wait. Until then, Guapisimio.
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