Hey happy valantines! I know with all that is going on around your life hapiness may not make sense. I feel you girl, I won't say I know exactly how you feel but did I ever tell you about seeing God through a broken glass?If you forgot or I never told you,I read a book by Max Lucado one of my best christian authors,that in our hearts there's something like a glass through which we see God then sometimes pebbles of fear,worry,pain,confusion break through our glasses and it becomes hard to see God through this broken glass.I do not like to shift anyone who needs encouragement from God's attention as the only hope for our fears,trials name it,one,because God has always worked for me,two,it is sinful to do so, Jer.2:13.So take heart and courage in God and tell your sister the same and please assure her that I"m praying earnestly about it.Molly and Romanus had to go through the same and coincidentally she was also posted to Kuwait but we prayed with them and God saw them through that time,as a matter of fact,they have also sent her an alert that they might need her services any time! So lets keep praying and trusting God to do his will which sometimes as you know isn't what we would want.Thanks for your prayers and I completeley understand what you mean by saying you feel like you don't know whats going on with me and I'm so sorry about that.There are two things that contribute to that,one is what your dad said about you and me that we shouldn't be writing too often and two the wol down here is undergoing a serious financial strain,can you imagine how I have survived without any allowance since around August last year?Only God's grace,sometimes my parents chip in something when it gets too much cause I don't like to bug them all the time with my problems I know they'd be more than willing to help but I feel I need to grow so I minimise rushing to them every other day and also the ministry sometimes gives us something small,(nowhere near the normal allowances we get)But I'm holding up.I'm sure God is aware whats going in my life and he's letting it happen for a purpose.About college,remember the college for clinical medicine I told you about?(if I did)Well I went to see the principle of one of the medical schools and he told me that I was never called because there was a lot of corruption and tribalism in the head office but that when the advertisement for this year comes I should reapply he's optimistic I'll get the chance this year because I have all the qualifications and besides,the corrupt guys were removed when we Got the new president and Government,but I don't to raise my hopes too high because I know what that has done to me in the past.whew! that was long.I miss you Bethany sometimes I just wish that all factors were constant and that you and I would be together all the time I haven't stopped thinking about you and if everytime I thought about you a litre of water from the sea lakes and rivers evaporated,there'd only be dry land by now.Miss ya take care and cheer up! FEAR NOT FOR I AM WITH YOU SAYS THE LORD!
Giddy

Wow, I have tried to be strong and encouraging for you lately and I am glad that it has helped but man, I have had the most emotional week ever. My sisters fiance who is in the army reserves was called to active duty and he thought that he would have time to marry my sister before he left within two weeks but they called him and told him that he had to leave immediatly. Then, we get the news that he is going to Kuwiat which is such a hot place. My heart is broken for her. And for as much as I relaly didn't want them to get married, I didn't want THIS. I really didn't I just want her to be happy. I can't even stop from crying as I write this. With every day comes more bad news of where he will be stationed or something. He might get to come home within the week but only for a day before they ship him overseas. They want to get legaly married then and then have the ceremony and consumate the wedding whenever Jeremy has leave. I don't know what to do exactly, I mean, my sister might be married TOMORROW and, quite honestly, it's killing me. Please don't get me wrong, feel so bad about all the stuff that is going on with you. I really do. I've been praying for you but I feel like I don't really know what's goingon with you since I only hear from you once a week. What is happening with us? Oh, before I forget, Valentines day over here is something celebrate usually by girlfriends and boyfriends. IT's not a hug big deal, we don't get off school or anything but usaully we have a party or something. Actually, this year we do have off school but I think that it is just a coincidence.
Bethany