Did you ever get my guitar pictures? I sent them quite a while ago but I don't remember you saying anything about them. Yes, I think that it's ok to chat every now and then. I still check pretty regularly becuse it's kind of habitually for me. But it's not that I don't want to talk to you. That's not the case at all. My dad just wants me to back off some. My feelings are my feelings I'm glad that you got time to set some goals an ambitions for this year. I think that is really important. I set some too. I decided that I need to work hard at making friends with people that I'm not real fond of. And that I need to stop complaining- that's just a few of them. And I feel you about missing and not being able to help it. Sweet dreams,
Bethany

I miss you Bethany and I really can't help it,hey did your dad say you don't send me any more snaps?Coz Ireally wanna see a picture of you I'm sure you've grown considerably now and sometimes I try to picture a grown you(hpysically) but can't quite get it right.Bethany I'm so happy that atleast you right and......let me see.........yes you reply to my mails a day or two which means you still check mail almost everyday don't you?Could we chat sometime?would your dad be okay with that?New yera for me was terrific coz I was at home where I made major decisions regarding mylife and set new goals desires and ambitions for this year which I really hope to achieve.THanks again for the mail I still think about you quite often and I pray for you.Missing as always,take care!
Giddy.

That was such a nice mail to read. Thank you. Did you have a nice New Year? The day after Christmas my family and I went to Georgia where my aunt and uncle live. That was all for our family reunion. It was fun, I guess. We went sight-seeing all over the place and for the most part it was really cool. We went to this colonial-working village place that was supposed to be just like it was in the 1850s. There was this potter with a kick wheel and we watched him make some pots and vases and things and it was so cool and it made me want to do it so very badly. So I come home and in my ingorant ambition look to see if I can get my hand on one of these wheels or make myself one or something. I mean, seriously, they couldn't be that hard with all the technology they have today when they amde them in the 1800s. Come to find out, they were going to be ridiculously hard to build and even more expensive to buy. I keep looking around anyway and I find this place where this art school is trying to get rid of some old ones that they had and they are selling them for $100, which isn't as cheap as my dad wants for another hobby of mine, but I honestly think that this would be a quality investment that I would use for the rest of my life. Then my dad was asking me all of these questions about what would I do with all of this stuff that I made, when would I have time to do all this especially since I'll be going away to college in almost a year. And really, his questions were legitament. So I'm rethinking this whole thing and it really looks improbable but I still want to do it SO bad. I cannot tell you how much I just want to grab clay and throw it on a wheel and make something amazing. Oh well, you can have everything you want, right? And you are totally right about how times change even though I wish they didn't. If you ever think of something that you don't like about me or think that I should change please let me know. It's important to me. And I certianly can't think of anything about you. Anyway, I miss you and can't wait to hear from you.
Bethany

well well well Atoti how have you been?My christmas was really cool, we had the service at Diani reef then we went swimming in the afternoon and had roast chicken and goat meat in the evening then we went to another hotel calleled safari to see a live music perfomance after which we watched movies till like one in the morning.Honestly I miss you Bethany and I must confess that I miss those times when somehow dispite the distance I'd feel like you're next to me those times I could see and read enthusiasm in your mails but I guess times change,and sometimes in lifeyou don't always get what you really want.I do that alot-looking for things in my life that I need to chang and I'll tell you the best way to this is the learn your heart and mind.Do some introspection as the Holyspirit to reveal to you errors in your attitudes reasons urges desires and motives it is the best way to change-from the insideout,your actions are a confirmation of what goes on in the inside.I have known you for very long and honestly there's nothing I can point out at you as something I don't like,how about you?What don't you like about me?Be honest too.Tomorrow is new year Have a happy one,I miss you and I pray for you still,tell you what?No matter what I still have this feeling deep within me that we shall meet again someday.Bless ya big tyme!
Giddy.