You kill me, you cute little boy, you. Actually all of my really good friends are people that love enought to ask me question to make me realize how hard this will be to work out, never discouraging me or giving me the very common "long distance relationships never work out". And people that are not close to me probably see how excited I get when I talk about you and would feel to bad to cut me down. At school, I think I'm seen as a quirky little girl who always has too much energy. I think that we have become very close throght this and I know that you like me so much, but please be patient with me, ok? Sometimes, I think that you are very very serious about me and that kind of scares me. Please don't misunderstand, I like you so much and think that you are perfect for me, but I am just not ready to promise any part of me to anyone (not that I would commit myself to anybody but you). Please remeber that I am just 16 yrs old and over here that is still an age where irresponsiblity is expected and I'm no where close to being an adult. Please don't think that I don't like the things you tell me because I do and it always makes my day but please, please be patient with me if I 'm not ready, ok? Thank you for being as patient with me as you have been so far. I like you so much I suppose that all of this is stemming for the part of me that never wants to grow up and always wants to be unpredicable. I really do like you and thank God for you often. I hope you have a good weekend despite my quirkiness and will talk to you probably Sun evening.
Atoti
I'll will be online on Wed at 6:00! I'm excited to talk to you!

Noooo! I wish I'd have been little more patient! Your brother is blessed among many boys for........'blessed is he whose feet bring good tidings......Anyway I'm glad you got them and you like them.It's the least I could do for your belated birthday.The thought that you'll go to school with them and show them off to your friends makes me really happy.Wow! Bethany what new thing can I say to you except that I like you in a new way today,not like yesterday because every day comes with a newness.Ok,if you can wake up early in the morning then could we chat this coming wednesday?You could be on line at 6:00am which is 3.00pm here with the 9hour difference.I'd LOVE to talk to you,especially now,we've come quite a long way haven't we?I must say we've been doing very well especially lately,I think our relationship is growing deeeeeeeeeper each day,I like you so much.Now don't forget that I'm locked up in your heart like hiding the greatest treasure in your life and not a prisoner or hostage so don't forget to check up on me there and see how I'm fairing.Today we only have a youth workers fellowship at 5.30 so I'm not really in a hurry.I want you to know that I look at your snap every day begin to think about you where we came from,where we are and where we're heading to.I pray that God will keep us more close each day till the day we'll meet again.Have you had people discouraging you that you and I are far apart from each other and so it can't work out?If yes what do you tell them?I haven't had such, everyone I tell about you is happy for me and encourage me.I know that time may come when you feel like giving up,if that happens rember that quitters never win and winners never quit.We'll make it through this period of time,it's a time to learn.Learn to like the one you like with your everything even in their absence,learn to completely trust your friend and to have confidence in them, learn to trust God,be positive and hopeful,learn to go through the hardest times with your friend though you're not there physically,learn to see a smile,a laugh and see a crazy face just through a mail,how much more when we're together?I'm ready to go through this time as long as I know that we're together.You're such a jewel to me,the epitom of beuty on both on the inside and outside.I'm blessed to have you and I always thank God for you.Goodnight.We have a Bible quiz tomorrow so I'm not sure if I'll check mail but I'll really try.SWeetdreams.
Giddy.

This would only happen to us. The very day after you blow your surprise, it arrives in the mail! They are so beautiful! I absolutely love these sandals! I am wearing them right now and I want so badly to wear them to school tomorrow and show them off to all of my friends but my mother said that I couldn't wear them until spring because the tempurature has now dropped below freezing and I figure you'd like me better if I did have toes. My brother brought me the package while I was at work and it made me so happy and there was a parent there who was picking up her child and I was telling her abot you and my trip over the summer and she was even excited for me! I cannot thank you enough! I had a rather bizarre at school today as well. But it is good for my heart to hear that you are feeling so much better. I absolutely love the Dive CD and think that it is one of his best ones yet. I would be more than willing to get up early in the morning to talk to you. I leave for school at 6:50. And I will really try to see what I can do for next Sat, alright? Thank you so much for that email and I will sleep with a smile on my face remember the precious words that you've told me. I know that you are with me and I hope that you can feel me with you every day. You know how much I wish that I could be with you, the same way you feel. Could you ask for a more perfectly matched couple? It's really amazing to think about how God is our Daddy and the almight creator of the universe at the same time, but it is WAY COOL. Nicole Noredman (who else?) writes a song that talks about how we can't forget to tremble when we come before God even thought we have confident before His throne of Grace. I am so glad that you like me. Have a productive day.
And you are way down in my heart- locked up tight.
Bethany

ohhhhhhhh! sweet sweet sweet mail that was.Talking of being rested and healthy,just the right dose for that is thinking about you.Anyway I get what you mean,I think you sounded very romantic and concerned in your last mail and that just the desert I need after every meal.I'll take care of myself for you and please do the same.Honestly I feel so good, you know like I see you when I read your mails.I was looking at the snap of the two of us,so happy and so much enjoying each others presence and I just appreciated the fact that we're a perfect match aint we babe?Yeah I was listening to this cd that has 'dive,and fingerprints of God' among others I didn't check the title of the album you know it? I learnt about the time change so could you wake up early in the morning before you go to school just to chat?What time do you wake up and what time do you go to school?Or how about next saturday?Hey tell me what is convinient to you then I'll try to fit in ok?My dad could be travelling to some Asian countries sri-lanka,India,malasia and philipines from15-20Nov.I don't know whether he'll be going to all those countries in only 5 days but I'm excited for him and please pray for those arrangements.Apart from Child Evangelism Fellowship my dad works under the Coast Dev. Authority in a comittee that works to preserve and also to put into important use,the palm trees so they are going for some kind of research.Thats the best I can explain.I don't really know much about that coz he joined recently.I wanna be with you too Beti,make you laugh and make you cry-happy tears-and walk with you,hold your hand,give you the warmest of hugs and just be with you,just have you next to me.I prayed so much about that this morning and God must have smiled coz I was like,'God you know how much I like Bethany don't you?Did you just bring her into my life that we have a nice time together just for a week then I get down to the business of missing her?Please make it possible that we meet again and please make it soon.He's my dad you know?I go before him with confidence-and respect too.Mhh! have a good night just feel me with you,can you?..............I'm right there can you feel my hand .............on your shoulders?............Ha haaa!Did it work?You got scared?I didn't mean to,I only meant to say that I'm with you in everything and you can count on me I hope you haven't been watching those scary movies lately.If you didn't get scared and felt some fingers creaping on your shoulders it tells me that the worst nightmare of me is better than a sweet dream of any other man.Anyway,Sweet dreams and hey you better lock up the upper side of your heart coz I'm going deep down!Goodnight!
Giddy

Horay! You DO really make me happy, I promise. I've never met anyone else who can make see so excited over just reading an email. And I cannot thank you enough for the gift. Just the thought made me so very happy. No, I haven't recieved it but I wish I could tell you how excited I was when I read your email. Even if it doesn't make it, it's the thought that counts, right? And I am so happy. So very happy. I'm going to try to call you in not too long. And I am so sorry that I am going to be gone all weekend long. I'll be back sometime Sun afternoon. I love Steven Curtis Chapman. He is one of my favorites of all time. My father adores him. It is so funny to see my dad sing and play the air guitar to his music. Few people I have ever heard can be so on target so often while being convicting. What did you listen to? When could you talk on Wed? I still have school and since we have changed times I think now I am nine hours behind you which makes things even more difficult. Do you have any specific time that you are online? Oh Gids, how I wish that we could be together. Thank you for everything that you told me in your last post. It was so nice to see those words. It made me feel so much better. I suppose I am just in an incredible sappy, romantic mood right now and can only think of you and the time we spent together. I'm really glad that you are feeling better. I don't know how you opperate with a fever. You never cease to amaze me. I don't know if I could ever do that. A fever shuts my whole body down. Take care of yourself though, ok? Please don't ever stay up at night because of me. I can't tell you how much that means to me, but I would much rather you be rested and healthy than thinking about me, ok? Please take care of yourself for me, ok? Thank you for everything you mean to me. I like you so much.
Bethany

I'm so sorry for that silence and to make you sad.I don't wanna make you sad,I don't wanna make you cry I wanna make you happy,I wanna be someone,a God-provided friend on whom you can count,for good times and happiness when you're down,I want you to know I want to be there in all those moments you dread most,just to hold and make you feel secure,yes,I always want to be there for you.Yesterday I wrote a mail but the servers were low so it was never sent.Anyway I'm doing fine.We had a nice weekend though I still had a fever and that was the bad part coz I never got to swim.Anyway now I'm in good health and especially now because I went for jogging this morning and I feel so fresh and energised.Its raining these sides and you wouldn't really like it here now.Hey I meant this to be a total surprise but it seems to have back fired,I'm dissappointed. way before what I thought was going to be your birthday,a friend of mine called Judy was flying to the states so I bought some nice African sandals and told her to send them to you when she gets there coz that would be so much easier but until now I haven't heard you mention anything about it and so just to confirm,did you receive them?If not,then I'll have to ask judy what really happened and I'm sure you'll get them soon.I was listening to curtis chapman's latest(I think so)cd this morning and it made me feel good I like the lyrics of the songs in that cd,they are very deep,no wonder he won the dove award for the same.Bethany I CRAVE to talk to you.I really wish we could chat this saturday but I understand your schedule is quite busy could we chat next wednesday or saturday?Or whats the best day for you?I miss you Bethany.All night I was so trouble by how you'd feel to sign in the blog and not see a mail from me.My college plans are okay,I believe that MOi university isn't going to be much of a problem,I'm waiting to talk to the lecturer who's helping me with the applications on the weekend of 22nd and 23rd,she'll be coming over to see her sister at the camp-the pastors wife-and she also sent a message to me that I see her then.Thankyou so much for your prayers, they are not invain at all.And please also pray for the financial situation of wol kenya,we're in a crisis but God is keeping us somehow.I'm so glad that I'm in your heart,and you better lock me in there-really you don't have to coz thats where I wannna stay ALWAYS and ditto.miss you!
Giddey
oh! the camps begin on 17th of Nov till early next year-looooooooooots of work I promise you.

Do you ever feel like there should be maybe 26 hours in a day? We have exams coming up at the end of this weekend and it's added some stress in my life. Then over the weekend I will be once again in the great state of Ohio all weekend long. We are going to a concert and to help out at the church we were at before. I want to talk to you so badly. I'm sad not hearing from you. I pray that you're ok. What have you been thinking about lately with some of your future semi-worked out? How are your school ministeries going? When are they finished? I know that you said that you had camps starting up again but I don't think that you said when. I think that I was going to tell you a good story but I've been sitting here for tem minutes and I can't remember it for the life of me. Never ever forget that I am praying for you and that you are always in my heart.
Bethany

OH man, I still feel so very bad about not being able to talk to you online yesterday. I'm so sorry. I feel even worse knowing that I'm going to be gone all next weekend too. Me and my sister had a pretty good time I suppose, I've had better. She had to go talk with one of her friends (about some important stuff) and so she left me with her friends and then they wound having to leave and so I was by myself, which wasn't really a big deal because I had things to do anyway. BUt she felt really really bad about it which in turn made me feel bad becuase I just want her to have fun when I'm there but I don't want to bough her down when I'm there. I felt worse that I made her feel bad, if that makes any sense. I'm excited though, to hear about how the boarding school service q and swimming went.
We have a costume party tomorrow and I'm going to be Cinderella so I had to come home and work on my dress. College life doesn't let me get much sleep, especially living with my sister so I'm going to bed. I'm scarred that my mind is considering you part of my normal thought process and so I'm not having any more dreams about you but I want one SO badly. Sweet dreams, Gideon.
Bethany