Well, I'm gald that you think he is an ok guy. And I don't mean to question God's sovereignity but do you really think that if I showed you my friends, you could show me who I was, without previouly knowing me? I don't think so. But maybe that's just my ignorant, narrow-minged viewpoint coming out. So why did you go home? Was it wedding stuff or just to see the fam? Anyway I hope that you had a nice time and I'm sure that you'll have fun with you friends on Sun. My sister is coming home this evening and she'll be here until mon but I'll only get the chance to hang out with her is tommorow because of school. In my English class we had to read this book about these people being killed in this house and now I am totally paranoid that there is somebody in my house and all of my senses keep playing tricks on me. Guess what I watched last night? Patch Adams. And you know what? I still only can see like eight fingers. It's bizarre. I think that part of my mind is really messed up or maybe I just can't count when I'm not focusing. We got our scrubs for my medical class and they are so comfortable. I think that I'm really going to like it when I have to wear them to school. Do you guy celebrate halloween over there? It is quite a big commotion over here, it's kind of annoying but I suppose everybody likes to dress up out of character once in a while, huh? I am SO glad that you like me and every day I pray for you, that you are growing and changing and becoming the kind of guy that God wants you to be.
Bethany

Though I can't begin to talk about my brother-in- law-to-be with enthusiasm as you'd expect from most men, I must admit that John is a cool guy.He's kinda quiet and thoughful which goes well with my sister's character. Infact those early days of their relatonship, my sister would ask me what I thought about him and about some other guys who were dotting her too and I gave credit to John over the rest so he owes it all to me huh!(kidding).So for that reason I'll be leaving today after the last Bible club and head hooooooooooooooooooooooooome, wow, I'm so so excited about that.That means I'll not be able to check mail till sunday then guess what?we have an outing with our teens class this sunday, they'll be coming to the word of life then we go to Diani Reef Hotel for swimming(yes it has to be in the afternoon, rule number...........) and games! I can't wait. I'm glad that I make you happy and that alone makes me happy.
Its very true that God is concerned MORE with the conditions of our hearts no matter where we are but don't you think that mans environment determines greatly his perfomance?In other words have you heard this saying"show me your friends and I show you who you are?I think it really matters where you are because that then determines what kind of people are around you (friends and companions) and hence what influence they have on you(determinism).Now God may take you to places with people of certain nature so that he can teach you something about some issues that are only found among those people and not in any others.And also as a sovereign God who is aware of every little detail of our lives I think that he providentially determines our environment.Enough of that, see whether you get any sense out of it.
Please Pray for my brother, he's got issues and I hope to talk to him if we meet at home I hope he'll listen to me.
I miss you and you know that already I like you so much, you know that too,you're in my heart and thats where I always want you be, I hope you knew that too.
Hugs 'n' kisses
Giddy.

I'm really really glad that you had such a good day. Knowing that makes my day even better. I hope that you were at the beach in the afternoon ;-) Concerning eternal value, you have a very valid point that I had never thought of. I'm proud of you.
Actually, I have a question for you. The other day some of my girls and I were talking about God's Will and how we know God's will for our lives etc. My youth pastor said, "Do you think God really cares?" It caught us all off guard and then later he expalined himself. He said that maybe God isn't so much concerned with our choices as he is our obedience. Does that make sense? Like, God isn't focused on where we are but how we're living. Not that He doesn't know where we are but His primary interest is in our hearts. I thought that is was really interesting but I didn't really know what to think about it.
Trust me, I don't take my sister for granted now. I just wish that I hadn't when I was younger. We used to HATE eachother. It was totally oppposite of what it is now. It's amazing how God works things out, isn't it? Probably most of it was my fault- I was such a brat when I was little. But I'm sure four years in between us didn't help so much. Anyway, did you like this guy- your sister's fiancee?
Gidoen, you make me SO happy and I like you alot too, but I suppose that you know all that, huh? Good night.
Atoti

wosup!
I just realised that in my last mail I gave you alot of stuff to respond to, and it was funny how your mail was flowing with'.........nope and yes and ....nope...anyway just trying to be on your case, cause thats been my mood today I had areally fantastic day.We in the drama team had a real surprise today when our leader just decided that we're going to the beach to relax instead of rehersal.Wow I made quite abunch of good noise today and I was in this kinda goofy mood today and guys just liked my company actualy there are some guys waiting out of this cyber cafe so we can hang out some more, but I think I wanna go back and have some quite time and eveluate my day, see if I have said any careless words or done any careless stuff and make it right with God, I like to do that after a day of too much interaction with people.About making an impact and things of eternal value,I mean that there are things like you said that the Bible expects us to be doing as a life style which are of eternal value, but the reality is that if you try to be honest you'll find that we don't do these things second by second, and so there are times we say words and do stuff that is just superficial and not from the heart and so it doesn't count for eternity, do I make any sense at all about that?never mind.Wow your sister must be caring alot about you to assure you of her time even after marriage and thats so sweet of her, you don't take such a thing for granted, you know what I'm sayin'?Don't worry about dowry, its fading now, especially christians don't call it dowry but just a small gift for the parents, it used to be very bad a couple of decades ago cause it was like purchasing the bride!Take your time about molly and only call her if you really want to, and thanks for spaing time for me even in your busy schedule.And hey thanks for the complement and tell your friend too.And you, are all I really want in my life everyboby outside knows why sitted infront of this computer and you can tell what I'm gonna be talking about all the way home.......who else but you?I like you alot, sweet dreams baby
Giddy.

Let's see what I've done today that will last. Well, a conversation is sticking out in my head the me and this guy had today. he was askin gme for some advice about our medical class. I was pleasantly surprised because he was the guy that I talked to about the Bible and we had opposite opinions but I'm really gald that he felt like he could talk to me. We'll see what becomes of that. But in all sincerity, will we ever know what part of our lives had impacted other people until we get to heaven? And if I'm not always making a conscious descision to live in a wasy that will change people's lives then I'm a failure as a Christian, don't you think? I'm happy for your sister and I'm glad that you have the day off tomorrow. My sister promised me that even when she is married that she will take time out for me and do goofy things with me. Yes, I would very much love to see an African wedding. Nope there is no such thing as dowry over here. We know what it is, but honestly, it is a foriegn cocept that is hard to grasp. I love Annionted and yes you told me about your Bible reading. You must have more self control than I- I could never sit down and read that much of the Bible at one time and still get something valuable out of it. It must take me longer to soak up. Mollly sounds great but this coming week is going to be a crazy one for me. I have something sigificant going on every night after work. I'll have no free time at all. But of course, I will make time for you. I was telling one of my friends about you today and she said "Oh, he must be ablsolutely adorable!" and I said "He is"
Have fun on your day off.
Yours
Bethany

I'm sorry that had to happen at a time when You were looking foward for a nice mail after not hearing from me for three days, then all you get is a short mail full of disappointments.Well this is a new day that God has made and I'll rejoice and be glad in it.I'm actually in a good mood today and not only good but festive because tomorrow is a public holiday'moi day' and so we're off work.I'm excited because when I leave here I'll go to my sisters place and spend the night.I'm looking forward to having a nice time reading my bible as I listen to one of my favourite cds by 'annointed' called 'if we pray'.You know what?Did I tell you about my Bible reading programme?I started in 31st of July and is supposed to end this sunday, thats less than 3 months, but I really want to achieve that, cause then I'll have read the whole Bible two times this year, although the first time I went through it in 6 months.
You better have enogh time with your sister because one of these days she'll be gone, I say that because my other sister, Linah,called me yesterday and told me to try and be home this weekend because her fiance will be comin' home to pay dowry,I know that dowry thing doesn't happen there does it?But now it has hit me that indeed she's getting married and her wedding will be in December how I wish you were here around that time, one of the places I'll really like to take you is to an African wedding.Anyway, we've been so tight with my sister so I feel it, but thats okay for her, we all have to go down that road time in life and its a wonderful experience...........uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhh! my mood has been enhanced by one of my favourite songs called 'the colour of love' by' Boyz to men', you know I'm in this very posh cyber cafe with soft music at the back ground, wow,its so romantic, I wish you were here.Thanks for the encouragement fom Romans, it reminds me that Jesus is also our high priest who is familiar with all that we go through both the good and the bad and he rightly interceeds for us and that is so marvelous.
Yeah, Molly is a friendly and supportive person and also very understanding.She went to Auburn university and she stays in Florida, she's now doing some classes in education and intends to do her masters in economics soon, I'm sure she'd make a good friend.Well I hope you had a nice wednesday, what do you feel you have done today that is of eternal value? Good night and I like you too, sooo much, sleeptight and have have pleasant dreams.
Giddy.

Oh I'm so sorry that you've had a rough start to your week. I know how you feel and I know it's hard. Just be patient and wait and see what God can turn it into, ok? I'm glad that you had a nice weekend. The advisory board for our medical class went to a challange Ed course where we had to do team-build stuff and to help us bond. It was really fun and I got to get out of classes all day long- lots of fun. Guess what? My sister is coming home this weekend. I'm excited even though we won't be able to hang out much because she won't be home until late. You know what I read this morning in my devos? It was in Romans and this verse said something like how because we are heirs of God then we are co-heirs with Christ and we share in his riches and sufferings. I think that it was in the end of chapter 9 or 10. I thought that it was really cool. I really can't be online long because my dad is away and he is suppode to call sometime tonight. I'm relaly sorry and I hope that that doesn't add to any bad moods. I like you SO much.
Beti

I have never been so disappointed in many days like today.I just came from a cyber cafe that has very lousy computers, I had written you a mail for awhole hour and more then it just disappears before I send it! to add salt on to the sore wound, the attendant charged me for all the time I spent on the computer, I was so pissed off.Any way I want to let you kow that I had a relaxing weekend and there isn't much going on these sides I am just waiting for Gods will upon my life.Things are moving slowly I must admit.Thanks for all those mails and its so uplifting to know that you are there.I don't how long this may take but I really want to see you again, walk with you, hold your hand, hug you,... and all that.Not many things are happening but there are many things in my mind.Bethany(or Hong Kong?) take care and please keep praying for me for peace and comfort.I hope to be in abetter mood tomorrow I'll tell you more about whats going on in my mind.Good night.I like you the way you are and I'm glad to have you.
Giddy.
Hey, I'll also tell you more about Molly tomorrow after I find out from Romanus some of that information you want to know but in my opinion she's a kind girl who knows what she is doing.

I just thought that I'd drop you a quick note telling you how absolutely beautiful it is outside right now and how the clouds are low enough that the city lights make them seem to glow and how the cool, crisp wather makes me want to me with you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad and how I just really really like to play the piano. I guess that was totally random and I should explain, huh? Well, it all started on my way home from practicing piano (it was a good practive too) and I looked up and saw the magnificient sky "It so beautiful outside. I wish Gideon were here" I said to myself. Then, I couldn't figure out if I had actually said that out loud as I was walking or not and if I did how very bizarre it was and how I hope that I never suddenly blurt out things when people are around or I would feel like a moron. Then, As I got inside my house I realized that instead of praying for you like I usually do when I see the sky, I was totally caught up in my mental quirks and I thought to myself (not out loud this time) Bethany, you are a nut. I suppose that I've been in an especially goofy mood since me and some friends went to see a sappy movie on Fri. I don't know why because I couldn't relate to it at all but like I said, I'm a nut.
I can't wait to here from you.
Bethany
As I re-read what I have just written I can't believe that you actually like someone who is this quirky.