wossssssssssup!
Girl first you should know that nothing you write to me is insignificant to me.I enjoy reading your mails and I admit that your last 'goofy-mood-written' mail was one of the most enjoyable mails I have ever receiveed from you.I kept smiling all through as I was reading it.
About the question I asked you,let me try tosimplify it
We can describe the quality of someoneslife,/yeah? so;
This is a two part answer kind of a question
1. How do you Bethany describe the quality of someoneslife?
2.Using the same criteria of classification what is the quality of your life currently?

I hate it when this sounds like an exam.I hope I'm not too complicated in my statements and questions I'll try to be as clear as possible.Take your time to think about these questions you can even ask someone to help you it's okay.

I'm assuming that by the time you read tis mail you'll have come from vising your friends.Well I hope you guys have had a nice time .Us guys have really been preparing for the mission tommorow through drama and singing(can you still picture me singing?)We were doing one drama called heart and I kept remembering you as we acted.I'm really excited by this trip but also because I'll be seeing my family.
Oh and that reminds me.I'm sorry tommorow (sunday) I can't be on line the whole day because of the mission but I'll check mail on tuesday morning.Oooh I really don't like how it sounds.It seems to me like awhle etrenity then to add on to your trip till wednesday.
Anyway I'll keep you close as always.I miss you too and no words can explain axactly what I feel about our friendship May be this song can;
Song: Butterfly
Album: BUTTERFLY

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When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb
To overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined
I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart
Will lead you back to me
When you're ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt
From almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
(Fly to the sun)
If you should return to me
(I will know you were mine)
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
(Spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I hope you don't get tired of this song because It's the only song that describes best best what I feel for you.
Take care and have a nice time with everybody(That includes Adam-Kidding)
Say hi to your family.
By the way you should be thinking of sendind those snaps that I took of you on our last day I can't wait to see them.
Giddy B

Ummmmmm, random- Do you have lightning bugs in Africa?

A novelist, huh?Well, I'm glad that you think I'm growing. I try. However, I think that you, Mr. Banda, need to me a little more specific when you ask questions. That one left me open to quite a varitey of awnsewresws (I hate that word I can never spell it and I don't know why) But I have been thinking about it and will let you know. Let me tell you what's going on with me. This weekend (tomorrow) my sister and I are leaving in the afternoon to go to Indianapolis to see some friends. We will be back Sat evening but then the following Mon afternoon I will be leaving to go to an amusement park with my youth group until Wed afternoon. Unfortuntately, I probably will not be able to check my email any of the times that I am gone but you never know what will become of a random computer. Can we still try to talk online on Sun at 7 or 2 or whenever? I miss you alot and I would love to talk to you. Guess what? Did you guess? Tell me what you guessed. I am in an incredibly good and even slightly goofy mood right now. Next Friday I start work again at the daycare, which I am looking forward to very much. I have really enjoyed these lovely two weeks of schedulessness (I have this tendency to make words up when I'm being silly) but I am quite ready to get back to work. Even though, I'm sure that after my first 12 hour day with the little munchkins over there, I will be ready for another two week of schedulelessness. Oh, and I have some more good news! Adam wrote me this big long email about how he was so sorry about of this and he never meant to put any pressure on me and that he appreciated me NOT going insane with him and that he realized that he needed to stop whining. After he apologized for all of his retardation (there I go again) he told me that he was going to work hard on being my friend and that he thought I should help him Find a mentor. I siad to myself "Ding! Nick Martakis would be theperfect guy!" (He is a really cool guy at our church that my dad is counseling and I think that him and his wife are growing alot) I felt so realived when I read that. Guess what else, while I'm going off on a rampage? Last night I did the DUMBEST thing ever. We were supposed to have a full moon last night and so I went outside to look at it and I couldn't find it anywhere (it was earlier in the evening than I thought it was. Little did I know that it hadn't risen yet). I stood there in my driveway and actually said out loud to myself "You can't just loose the moon, you moron." Then I went back inside and realized that it was only 8:00. Boy did I feel inteligent. Well, before I make a COMPLETE idiot of myself, rambling on about nothing of any significance to you, I'm going to stop myself tell you that I think you're really cool and I'm really really glad we're friends.
B-mo
(that's what my sister calls my when we're being stupid together)

wow!
Where do I start?Okay, I think the 'samantha ordeal' must have been very scary for her but I agree that it's got som humour in it too.And what's more is that I think you can be a good novelist,no kidding you could write best sellers! As I was reading through I felt as though I was actually there.Any way thanks for ths story.
We'll be going to my home town called Kilifi with the whole team but they will come back on the same day but I have permission to stay with my family till tuesday but it's okay I positive that I'll have access to a computer.
About fear I must say you are getting philosophical and your reasoning is becoming sharper everyday.Well think about this;How do you judge the quality of one's life and hence how would you describe the quality of your life presently?
I have a string of questions in mind even as I write this but I'll take you slowly but surely step by step.But I really encourage you to really think about issues' anything everything that surrounds somehow teaches us something about God,ourselves,and others.
We're having such a busy time arround here and I know that's the case for you but inspite of that, this is a primary commitment to me,to keep in touch with you.Nice time and take care.
GiddyB

Hmmm...The popular answer is - Face your fears, but I think that knowing our fears keeps us humble. Being intimidated by something reminds us that God is in control and that we should be fully relying on him. I think that having/knowing your fears gives you a sence of insecurity and that keeps us uncomfortable. And comfortable is unchanging- we should be growing and changing every day. I think that without fears, we, as a human race, would be arrogant and foolish. I think you do nothing about them unless you are driven by them. God can use anything He wants to mold us and change us to be like Himself. I think that fears are something that He uses BECAUSE we don't know what to do with them. Do you think that I'm way off target?
Anyway, where are you going on your missions trip? Are you going with the rest of the WOL team? Let me tell you the funniest thing that I have heard all week long: one of my best friends, Samantha, was babysitting for these poeple that she didn't really know all that well but that have just recently been coming to our church. She told me that they had an absolutely HUGE house and that as soon as she walked in her mouth dropped. One of the first things that the mom told her was that they had a security alarm just incase any of her children tried to run away (which set off yellow lights in Samantha's head to begin with). As Samanthat got to know each of these children as she looked after them she realized that each on of them had their own major issue like autisms or something(more yellow lights). At this point in the story I just felt really bad for her but then she went on. It was almost time for the mom to be home and she was fixing them spagetti and none of the kids had been listening all day long to anything she had said so she was already frustrated. Well, all of a sudden, the alarm went off and Sam flew up the stairs to make sure that none of the children had tried to escape. None of them had, which was actually a bigger problem because that meant that someone else had tried to open a door. So by this piont the oldest girl is screaming that if they don't turn the alarm off soon, the police would be arriving any minute. Sam goes to turn off the alarm but it won't turn off without a code that she doesn't have. So she goes to call the mom on her cell phone. The phone is dead (does that evey happen in real life? I have only ever seen that in the movies, it's a textbook manuver for an ax-murderer). So she is feaking out by this point, ready to have a heart attack. She goes into another room to see that the oldest girl has gotten the phone to work and is making prank phone calls. Just about this time the mother walks in, the girl hangs up the phone and runs to her room. Well, the person that she called, called back and wanted to talk to her mother. She said that the girl had been using all kinds of profanity on the phone so the mother is screaming at this girl to come apologize and is trying to settle this angry woman down on the phone. Right about that time the door bell rings and the police arrive at the house. Samantha open the door and then goes to get the mother who already has her hands full. Finally everything gets worked out and then the mother asked Samantha to babysit for them again today. I thought I was going to die I felt so bad for her but at the same time it was hysterically funny. That never happens in real life. She could make a movie about that and be rich and famous. Well, now that I have ranted for a while I need to go take a shower and go to piano lessons. Have a fantastic day.
Bethany

Hey there!
Wow I think this blog thing is really cool.Thanks for your mail.Yesterday the moon was full in the aky with plenty of stars.I sat there at the balcony of my room thinkong and praying about you.Hey! I don't know whether you got this mail but I asked you this;'You remeber you asked me about my greatest fear and I told you?Well this is the question,why ia it important?Why do we have to know our fears?Can God use our fears in anyway into molding us to be like christ or does what does he want us to do with our fears?Think about that.
We'll also be going on a missions trip this sunday and I'll be back on tuesday but till then we can still keep in touch.
Say hi to everyone at home I wrote your sister a mail I hope she got it.I woud also like to write to your mum if that's okay.I'm jazzed by your whole family it's like I know what it's like.
Miss ya
Giddy

My sister showed me this whole blog thing and I think that it's totally fly (here comes my thug again). I love her so much . We had so much fun last night. We went to the store to get some things to make her a lamp and we just laughed all night long. I'm going to miss her so much. We're going out of town this weekend though, I'm excited. We're going to stay with some of our old friends and go to a concert. Later this school year we might fly down to Georgia to visit her boyfriend, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that or not.
Last night it was cloudly as the sun was setting. All of a sudden there was a break on the clouds and the sun shone hot pink and red, but for only a few seconds before it hid behind the earth. It was magnificent. It reminded me alot of my life and how fleeting it is. Please keep challanging me, Gidoen, I don't ever want to be comfortable with my life, even though it is so easy to do. I want to be a radiant burst of fleeting life.
Bethany